Selfcare

This quote is really hitting me hard and I feel like most days I am the sunshine in many peoples lives except for my own and I feel horrible because I can always cheer someone else up but not myself. Again I feel my depression getting the best of me while I'm here. So instead of being everyone else's sunshine I have to start being my own sunshine. It warms my heart when my friends and other people say that I made their day better. I felt like I contributed something positive to the world. While all this may be nice what about Destinee's happiness? For next week my goal is to focus on my own happiness instead of everyone else I need self care time as Dr. Kyburz always mentions. That is exactly what I'm going to do.

This is what is what I don't understand and I'm still having trouble understanding this I always thought relaxing was something you do as a reward not a necessity that's what my parents taught me. I have now learned that this is not true and this is something that you need to do in order to keep yourself up. I will now start doing this and focus on me. #selfcareisimportant

My New found family

I am so excited that I can call two people that mean a lot to me family. I met them in august and spending time with them everyday has made me even closer to them. Not everyone is going to sit there while your balling your eyes out about some family issues and console you. Not everyone is going to pick up the phone in the middle of the night just because you have a nightmare but these to friends will.  At first it was hard letting someone get so close me and the last person to get this close to me was my boyfriend and we've been strong and sticking together for 2.5 years. I get tired of him sometimes yes but he has become like my family and not I have an addition. My dad could tell that I was happier about being at school so I told him about my new found family and he said just be aware don't get too relaxed around them.


I believe this is going to workout I mean again positivity is key and it's what's going to get me through college. I hope I never lose my friends. I understand that not everything is going to be peachy. Welll I'm nervous but lets see how this goes. I hope I didn't speak too soon.

Staying positive

Through trying to get through this negative vibes I have about NIU this quote really speaks to me. I'm starting to think maybe it's because I'm not opening my mind wide enough to new experiences. Maybe if I start being positive and opening my mind the experience will get better. OK I'm taking this idea and I'm running with it. I am going to keep my head held high and I'm going to keep pushing through this regret I have about choosing this school. I can't move forward with negative energy.

I may be feeling like I don't wanna be here but my depression isn't helping me stay positive but it's going to be okay. I'm going to keep looking at positive quotes and keep the positive vibes flowing in and the negative vibes flowing out. I also have God on my side. I got this!